I am not what others think about me...... but I am also not what I think I should be...
impossible to accept...but yes I keep on switching my sides dodging others perceptions.. it's not always about good or bad...rather what I like and what I don't... what I should be is a biiiiiigggg question... I wonder what might that be...
No lies... I like to be loved and feel the love coming all around for me..so I shade down...carve it...frame it...
The beauty of mind and soul is the only acceptable things but what about all those freedom files peeping from my heart all the possible ways...not acceptable behaviours which I love to carry on...but not strong enough to rebel...can't cross the line of the historical border of authenticity...
so what option left with me.... lie and live.. 2 days of lies...2 days of joy... 3 days of lies...3 days of joy.. and so on and on...
Again it's not always the lies leading to joy but what's wrong with carrying it for a few more days of joy... I can live without lie...but why can't I carry few lie,,,, life is not all about living life ideally.. i don't wanna be an ideal.. i don't want be what i should be all the time, acceptable by all the people around... why life is always a journey to achieve a target... why can't i just waste it on the useless things i love to do...
Sit,, think..talk...sleep...eat..rest.. and do nothing.. I hate you eve...u created this working world...running restless...
I won't live once..love once... die once... my day will start every morning..love daily...and die on the bed every night... :)
